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People are weird, and i wouldn't have it any other way. It makes me realize how much growing i have to do before i become truly eccentric.
i used to read fannish thoughts on fandom and get angry or frustrated or snarky, but now i just ponder. well, except for my post in FandomWhore's guestbook i suppose, but that was too easy. Tell me again about how much you hate hearing the word "pussy lips", *please.* heheh.
I don't ponder in a traffic accident way so much, although i do that too, but trying to understand underlying motivations. i like to try and figure out why people feel the way they do.
Eh, having a life of my own is pretty overrated anyway.
funny how the chorus of Stop Writing Crap! sounds so much to me like Stop Writing! Just Stop It! crap or no crap, just cut it out.
it seems like when someone writes a fannish story these days-- good, bad, shitty, or indifferent-- that it takes away from them somehow. Like a really bad story deeply affects them personally, like it reflects badly on *them*. but why should it? Are they so worried about badfic that they feel their voices won't be heard in the crowd anymore? are they afraid that there will be so much badfic their own stuff will be swept away? well, if you believed truly that your stuff was good on its own merits, then it won't ever be swept away. quality is quality, whether it's read by 5 people or 5000.
I wonder why some writers think of their writing and badfic in practically the same breath. it's interesting.
I wonder why people are so obsessed with badfic. okay, there's a lot to be obsessed about, but what's sad is that so few people truly appreciate the beauty of a righteously bad story. i didn't use to, but when i started to look at the heights of nuttiness some authors come up with it made me think about how fine that line is between good and bad. all the badficcers are guilty of is shooting for the moon and missing it. I always want to invoke the spirit of Ed Wood when i feel this way... but at least Ed and the badficcers went for it.
and i think that's the problem. when people are blocked creatively or don't find the time to write and see others who may not be as good as they are writing their guts out or even (*gasp*) getting praise for it, i think something snaps. not for everybody, but for some. like it's a jealousy thing.
Oh yeah? Well *I* could've done better than THAT piece of crap!
Yeah, but you didn't, did you? Someone beat you to the punch.
Like they're pissed that while they have the perfect story in their head, perfect plot, perfect everything, someone else came along and fucked up their world. jeez guys, it's fanfic-- start over in your own universe. if it bothers you so much, stop paying attention.
I've definitely got the "it's perfect while it's still in my head" thing going, but if someone else can write and i can't, well, good for them. no skin off my back. i'm just writing here in a tiny little corner when i can actually write. writing is such a pain in the ass sometimes.
Actually, i wish i could make a banner: Proud Recipient of the Don't Quit Your Day Job Fanfic Award, complete with a crosseyed me picking my nose and wearing my cheesyass beret. it gives me the giggles every time i think about it. could one of you bannermasters help a poor girl out?
Because while writing drives me nuts sometimes, when i'm done it's the best feeling in the world. i got the story idea down, went from beginning to middle to end, and i did the best i could. some are worse, some are better, but i'm just chugging along at my own comfortable pace, not comparing myself to anyone else. i know i won't be as good as some, but i don't *despair* over it. if i did that, it would be (in my head at least) like trying to steal someone else's thunder.
i want to be *you* so i could have *your* glory. that's what it sounds like to me. and it's sad-- you should be happy for people when they kick ass, not despairing over your own state of affairs that you didn't get a share of the wealth.
and anyway, why would i *want* to be like anyone else? there are some writers out there who kick tremendous ass, but i don't want to be like them.
i gotta be meeeeeeeee, lol.
i used to read fannish thoughts on fandom and get angry or frustrated or snarky, but now i just ponder. well, except for my post in FandomWhore's guestbook i suppose, but that was too easy. Tell me again about how much you hate hearing the word "pussy lips", *please.* heheh.
I don't ponder in a traffic accident way so much, although i do that too, but trying to understand underlying motivations. i like to try and figure out why people feel the way they do.
Eh, having a life of my own is pretty overrated anyway.
funny how the chorus of Stop Writing Crap! sounds so much to me like Stop Writing! Just Stop It! crap or no crap, just cut it out.
it seems like when someone writes a fannish story these days-- good, bad, shitty, or indifferent-- that it takes away from them somehow. Like a really bad story deeply affects them personally, like it reflects badly on *them*. but why should it? Are they so worried about badfic that they feel their voices won't be heard in the crowd anymore? are they afraid that there will be so much badfic their own stuff will be swept away? well, if you believed truly that your stuff was good on its own merits, then it won't ever be swept away. quality is quality, whether it's read by 5 people or 5000.
I wonder why some writers think of their writing and badfic in practically the same breath. it's interesting.
I wonder why people are so obsessed with badfic. okay, there's a lot to be obsessed about, but what's sad is that so few people truly appreciate the beauty of a righteously bad story. i didn't use to, but when i started to look at the heights of nuttiness some authors come up with it made me think about how fine that line is between good and bad. all the badficcers are guilty of is shooting for the moon and missing it. I always want to invoke the spirit of Ed Wood when i feel this way... but at least Ed and the badficcers went for it.
and i think that's the problem. when people are blocked creatively or don't find the time to write and see others who may not be as good as they are writing their guts out or even (*gasp*) getting praise for it, i think something snaps. not for everybody, but for some. like it's a jealousy thing.
Oh yeah? Well *I* could've done better than THAT piece of crap!
Yeah, but you didn't, did you? Someone beat you to the punch.
Like they're pissed that while they have the perfect story in their head, perfect plot, perfect everything, someone else came along and fucked up their world. jeez guys, it's fanfic-- start over in your own universe. if it bothers you so much, stop paying attention.
I've definitely got the "it's perfect while it's still in my head" thing going, but if someone else can write and i can't, well, good for them. no skin off my back. i'm just writing here in a tiny little corner when i can actually write. writing is such a pain in the ass sometimes.
Actually, i wish i could make a banner: Proud Recipient of the Don't Quit Your Day Job Fanfic Award, complete with a crosseyed me picking my nose and wearing my cheesyass beret. it gives me the giggles every time i think about it. could one of you bannermasters help a poor girl out?
Because while writing drives me nuts sometimes, when i'm done it's the best feeling in the world. i got the story idea down, went from beginning to middle to end, and i did the best i could. some are worse, some are better, but i'm just chugging along at my own comfortable pace, not comparing myself to anyone else. i know i won't be as good as some, but i don't *despair* over it. if i did that, it would be (in my head at least) like trying to steal someone else's thunder.
i want to be *you* so i could have *your* glory. that's what it sounds like to me. and it's sad-- you should be happy for people when they kick ass, not despairing over your own state of affairs that you didn't get a share of the wealth.
and anyway, why would i *want* to be like anyone else? there are some writers out there who kick tremendous ass, but i don't want to be like them.
i gotta be meeeeeeeee, lol.
