Mar. 12th, 2009

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Last night, I read the latest Vanity Fair article about Bernard Madoff with a mix of horror and fascination. I told Vali last night of the time I was overseas and fell for one of the oldest scams in the world-- changing money from a person on the street instead of at the official kiosks-- and still remember vividly the shame and embarrassment when I realized he'd made off with my money. I was ashamed at my momentary flash of greed, disguised as a bargain for me, and remember thinking everyone in the currency line that didn't fall for it were secretly judging me, the stupid, greedy American. I had to cut my trip short because I didn't have enough money to continue staying there (I didn't get a credit card until I was nearly 30, thank the heavens for that accidental piece of good fortune) which is just as well as I promptly got strep throat on returning to the States. Not one of the best vacations I'd ever taken. $100 isn't a lot, but it was a lot for me at the time.

I was just thinking of that tiny sliver of shame and betrayal and embarrassment and magnify it to encompass your life savings at the time you're supposed to retire on all the money you'd saved your whole life and I feel like I have to breathe into a paper bag, and I didn't even lose anything. I haven't even mentioned all the foundations this has cleaned out, *wheeze*. As for me, I save money from my paycheck every month, but that could be wiped out in a second in a car wreck. I feel like the rose in The Little Prince with her thorns-- fierce to her but insignificant to the goat who might want to eat her for a snack.

And yes! I really did just make Madoff all about me! *bows*

The article comes with pictures of Madoff, who I hadn't seen before. I was wondering where I'd seen that smirk before and then I remembered. It's the same smirk we'd seen on a drunken frat asshole cowboy who stood before everyone and lied us into war and fucked up our country and hasn't had a shred of remorse about the whole thing, because in order to have remorse you must be capable of thinking about what you've done.

But on the lighter side, Alpha Delta Phi PWNS The Westboro Baptist Church. Check out the Youtube clip, it's the greatest thing I've ever seen.


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Bill Rebane, Moviemaker and Feminist

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